Some things you lose and somethings you just give away.

So many friends told me to leave it alone forget it and ignore it you are much better than that.
However they didn't say anything about not venting right? I just need to let it out and that will be the                                                                        end of it.I PAWMISE.

It was brought to my attention yesterday...Before you start judging or throwing comments at me there is always two sides of the story.

I feel silly writing this...but anyways.

When starting a brand new relationship you go through this phase when all you want to do is hang out with your boyfriend or girlfriend.

Its normal.

I didn't neglect anyone though.I never got any complaints from anyone that i was choosing this person over the other etc.

I've seen friends come in and out of relationships and all they wanted to do was spend time with their loved one.And to me that was fine sure sometimes it felt like we were talking less hanging out less but it never crossed my mind that they were choosing their loved one over me vise versa.

I wasn't bitter about it or anything.

You're getting to know this person it is completely normal.

Everyone does it so don't sit there and pretend to like you have nawwt.

You know whats real "saaaad"? 

If it was such a great friendship ...well then tell me this....

Instead of throwing in directs at me on snapchat or posting it on facebook for people that dont know you to see 

Did it ever occur to you to reach out to me? so we could talk about it?

You have my number ...but WAIT you were too busy letting all these strangers know...

like if they care.and all for what? attention.
I'm no better by writing it on here either I will admit.But answer me this...

at the end of the day did it fix anything? did it make you feel better? 

I never liked the guy who led you on for an entire year,I always told you to stop talking to him.But In the end it is your life.I was just there to give you my opinion and not force you in to doing something.
It was your decision and I sat with you multiple times in downtown talking it out,listening to you even if I didnt have any clever advice.
We sat there at the redwood or at Caseys and it was always something but i remain there with you.

We ALL get our heart broken that is inevitable but friends are still there to support you regardless if they like the guy or not.

You broke my heart by posting these things.I care for you I never wished you wrong.

I was always there.I reached out to you the first time we got in a fight why couldnt you do the same?

You really cared ? a phone call would've been nice.

Yeah maybe you are wondering why didn't i call? 

I wanted to give you your space.

I wasnt sure how to approach it but I never went on ranting for the entire world to see.

I was always a phone call away.

always.

- Chibi.

Update.

Its Sunday I only had one day off this week which was Thursday because of thanksgivings day.I felt like these past two days went by in slow motion.Now we are closing at 930 an hour later...I have mixed feelings about it I think its pointless since the last hour nobody comes in.But hey on the bright side I got great hours this week! Meaning I can do my Christmas shopping in the second week of  December. I made it the other day and its decent I'll be able to stick to my budget this year and still have left over money to get something for my fur children.

At this moment ,I am sitting on the floor like a burrito with a blanket wrapped around me.The Smith's Hatful of Hollow record is on repeat.I got my vanilla coke to my right and theres a big cat laying down to my left he's making funny sounds as he sleeps he's wrapped in two blankets.I didnt even get a chance to offer him to sleep on my bed he knocked out while we were watching the blair witch project,the poor darling had been up since 6 am this morning well we both have.But I feel like I can sleep much later.I dont have work tommorrow till four.

Meaning I get to stay in and deep clean the room and do laundry in the morning.

I'm wishing some of the stuff i ordered on black friday gets here!

Lately everything seems so calm and peaceful,I dont know why things just switch up around the winter,but i like it.

This past Friday I got the sweetest surprise.I was exhausted from work trying to convince Izzy not to give me a ride home since i was going to get out later I felt selfish asking him to drive me home since he wasnt going to be able to sleep over.But he was stubborn so what does the charming cat do?! 

Shows up early like always,I get in the car he hands me a jacket,a big box of thanksgiving left overs and a can of coke.....whaaaaaaaaaaaa?!?! 

I instantly forgot about the cold weather and the long day.

When he dropped me off I realized seeing him for 10 minutes is better than not seeing him.

It was such a kind gesture of him.

If you are reading this I love you and thank you.*kissy poos* 

On another note.Does anyone have a comfort movie?! 

Mine has been "Home" for the past two months it just hits me.and c'mon you gotta love Jim Parsons he's too damn adorable.

Also for the first time today I watched the perks of being a wallflower...omfg.

Why hadnt i watched this earlier?! it is sooooo gooooooood! might actually watch it again in a bit!

I wanna get back in to writing and reading a lot more.

any good book recommendations? ...I'm a bit embarrassed to admit ..i have yet to read Sara Taylor's boring girls.I know I know.what you're thinking! I'm a huge tbm fan>?! why havent i read it?! 

I have yet to,soon,.i hope.

well thats all for now folks.

Goodnight.

halloween in the summer....yesssssh

If I was your spirit animal I'd be a fox.~

...uh...HIIII there.
                                 Jeez its been a month since I've updated this thing!
I just got home from work a little while agooo...and decided hey ....I have time...I'm not too exhausted
..*puts hair in a bun* plays The Smiths. LETS UPDATE.
So for the next two weeks.I am working 7 days a week...and four days out of the week I'll be doing 13 hours shifts no DAYS OFF.Its kinda refreshing it brings back memories about a time when I was working both at Sallys And Walgreens.....Ohhh Walgreens...I miss it sometimes.anyways
So ...13 hour shifts ...5 hours in one sallys then I have to haul my ass to the next Sallys for an 8 hr shift luckily they arent too far from each other.Plus my manager has been been giving me A LOT more hours and I can't complain.The busier I get the less time I'll have to spend.I mean,C'MON with October coming who wants to spend?!?

Certainly NOT me......

In a matter of two weeks  we've made two trips to Michaels arts and crafts because they have finally put up tons of Halloween goodies...so its impossible not to gasp every time you turn to the next aisle.I do believe we were the loudest ones there...

Izzybella Addams.

This cat butt trying on accessories and posing for the camera.

I've been trying to convince him to go into modeling.

(no joke)

I totes bought that for 2.49? thats a deal.

Skellytones! ~ 

YOU GUISE THIS HAS ALWAYS BEEN MY FAVORITE SECTION.

HALLOWEEN STICKERS! tons of them and most of them at a very affordable prize ....un dollar.

I think the black kitty ones in the middle are my faves.

Then theres the Halloween carousals and other toys that move and make sounds.

These are actually made of foam if i recall correctly.

This was from our first trip Izzy bought us some cute wooden coffins and little spooky mason jars.

I wish I could've taken a lot more photos but the excitement was just too much.

They had this pretty cool spooky flamingo that lights up ...and i MUST have,,,mmmh..I think they still have tons of other stuff to put up.

Maybe if I cross my paws really hard they'll put out an Octopus that lights up!

On our second trip we wasted around $60 dollars just on toys ...like gooey stuff ...things that only 4 yr old would buy.

May I add ..that sallys has ALSO put out Halloween nail files,there's candy corn ones,orange and black polka dotted/and stripes.

Once they start sending us more stuff I will post photos.

Rumor has it Mcmittens is the babacat....

Oooooo  lets see..my first time at total wine,I had never been there.We usually go to Bevmo...but Izzy felt like drinking.So we walked in and my first surprise was the miniature baby krakens.I am so in love with those ..drink two in a row and I swear youre good for the next four hours or so.

We slowly made our way to the other aisles...and right there set up in a really long table 

FALL BEER.

Just picture a kid at a candy store or at their first trip to Disney land.yup...nothing but

OMG OMG.....OMG....

Izzy was even like umh...please dont break anything.and I was all like pfffft 

whatever dude.stay out of my way.HAW.

..i didnt really say that.

We ended up picking out 8 different pumpkin beers.I had a really big smile the entire time.He's not a very big fan of Pumpkin flavored stuff but just the fact that he gave them all a chance and was willing to try them was very sweeeet.^_^

I enjoyed almost all of them.They each had their own unique taste 

But I must say the shypyard's pumpkin head was delicious.I will be going back to total wine so i can restock on nothing but Pumpkin head !!!

whatever you do dont try samuel adams octoberfest...it was GROSS.just saying.

and now for the weekend its little Alize's bday so Izzy invited me over this Friday because they will be doing a bbq..

whats a good present for a 13 yr old?! crap...is she turning 13 ? or 14?....ahhhhh

and on Saturday I have a baby shower to attend....then work...then a bbq at night..

But somewhere in between we will do some more pumpkin beer tasting and catching up on some bloody good horror Spooktacular.

most likely on Sunday.

With that being said.

Moz has put me in a trance and I will nap before Mr.Cat butt gets home.

till next time.

(=^_^=)

note to self: MUST GO BOOK SHOPPING SOON.

                                                                                                              ~Chibi

furry creature EVICTED.

So...I'm pretty sure..you've all heard of mice or rats living in stores...mmh....

most common gangs of spiders,roaches or ants taking over....
its their friggin summer ritual!!!

right?

For the past two weeks my manager and my coworker would open in the morning and they'd find mystery poop near the safe like out of all places right? 

or near the back room.

We thought FUCK.we gotta stop letting people's dogs wander around the store ...

It kept happening.

mmmh....what could it be?! and how does IT come in?!? ....

mmmh....odd.

A raccoon? maybe a sewer rat? nawwhhh...a possum?? is it in the store right now?!....

*panic attack*

meow?

Did you guise hear that?! NO? oh....

I guess i just really miss my cat...

Because at the time Mcmittens was living with Izzy for almost a week so i thought maybe ..im just really feeling  gloomy.

Several days passed before the 

the furry intruder was seen walking in through the front door of our store!!!!

OMG.

He was so cute but scared this is as close as he let me get to him before he ran off into the restroom.

The first thing my coworker did was go next door and buy him wings...as for ME?...

I wasted no time and decided to name him Winston ...after our manager said it was ok to just leave him there.It kinda made going to work more interesting...Like in the book Dewey where the cat lived in the library for many years...except..Winston would be living in a beauty supply store..perhaps...not the best place for a cat..specially when he began marking his territory....

Can you imagine going to a Sally's and it smells like cat piss?!

kinda funny.

Well...the people at work didnt think it was funny AT ALL.

Winston had made himself comfortable.But that soon came to an end.
His stay here had been cut short and 

they gave him his eviction notice.

In other words they had called animal control to come get him..It was the saddest thing ever I'll admit my eyes got a bit watery.

We'd never see him again.

Now all that is left is the cat pee smell that lingers through the nail/make up aisle.

Cat butt bonding with Mcmittens....

who is actually now back at his old house...I was able to pay the deposit to keep him.There was no way he was going to end up at an animal shelter...8 years of company and friendship.

Plus Izzy was being super understanding about letting him stay....aside..the couple of times Mcmittens peed on his blanket....and under the bed....AND his car....yeahh...that happened.

My goodies finally came in the mail!!!!

HOUSE OF ADDAMS....

PENTACAT!!!!

I was literally "OMG OMG OMG" for the next hour or so....

I had ordered only the little pins you see on the side...but they also threw in these super cute stickers!!!!!!

I'm still waiting on my JOJ shirt ...but ahhh this will keep me satisfied in the mean time!!!

Cutest little package I've ever received!

Thank you Miss Addams <3

At work doing what i do best.

Friday.

"I'm on my way...send me your address"

He picked me up from work in his cthulhu green sweatshirt...

And we made our way to his coworker/friend Danny's place 

He lives in Northridge i had been there once before back in April I tried one of his amazing burgers....

This time around I was surprised he still had left over Kraken from my last visit...

For those of you that dont know its black spiced rum.

Its best served with Dr.Pepper or coke...

I usually just drink it by itself ^_^

*angel music plays*

(that salsa in the background was puurrrfection)

The night went by very chill,they spoke of music & spicy chiles.Then Danny told us about the time he went to a brewery I didnt catch the name shoot...I was under the Kraken influence..

While Izzy kept slowwwwwly making his way to the fridge till he vanished 6 blue moons...

We were then exposed to a plate of Flanken short ribs..."Costillas nortenas de res"

I apologized...it didnt occur to me to a picture...

I'm not big on red meat ...but you guise they were so fucking tasty....

Despite how full you were ..leaving left overs would make you feel guilty..

If that even makes any sense.

The man CAN cook.

He was then kind enough to share a Rocky Palet cigar with us..It was nothing but smooth chocolate flavored.

*melts*

He also showed us his plant..I believe he's growing chili's? 

We stumbled home.....at almost 3 am....

Friday.

I wouldn't change a thing.

the cutest grave digger that ive ever seen.

Alkaline Trio's "Radio" fills my room,Im accompanied by two felines and a cup of Earl grey tea.

Let me tell you about my rabbit hole,my safe place,my second home.....The wonderful place where i most likely spend more time in than my actual home ..... 

Its located none other than in Sun Valley and the airplanes fly so close to it you go deaf for a couple of seconds..theres always enough shade and its hidden...do you know what im talking about ? None other than the Izzy residence. Its a cute little house with doggies roaming around....and a small friendly cat that goes by the name Bacon who just happens to be Izzys only pet aside the spider that occasionally hangs out next to his window but ssssshhh dont  tell him.

I took a few photos of his room last night theres tons of random things in that place ....adorable oddities.

Pretty mason jars......with colorful fake flowers....artist? The adorable Alize (Izzys niece)

Shoot i dont remember getting awesome assignments like that.

Totes jelly.

I guess school isnt too bad now right? 

Meet carrot....she stays in the room next door.Shes quite.....but once you get close she starts running back and forth..cant tell if shes playing  ..and her eyes are always dilated .....or are their eyes suppose to be like that? Its new to me.

P.s.Rumor has it she bites.....bunnicula?

Behold!!!!......The Kraken.....Baby kraken and......Jameson in the back.

Also that Frankenstein was the first thing I ever gave Izzy.♡ Back in April.

Told you lots of random treasures in that place..

Im craving a baby Kraken....

A leopard thong,an incense holder and pomade.jk...its not a thong its a head band. ..and then theres alice in the background.

Peaceful environment = Happy Dweeb.

Lost in Limbo.

Best part of it all...hanging out with this Cat butt.♡♡♡

His nonsense.His laughter.His dorky glasses.

His presence. 

Did I mention he owns a stand up bass? ...and an alkaline trio acoustic guitar? (Not photograped here...maybe in the near future.)

Favorite part of all this is laying on the bed and talking,cuddling,smothering.

Holding each other.

Going on beer runs & ice cream....and seeing this view trying to take it all in.What problems? What stress? Theres none here.Theres nothing but good vibes ♡ 

why cant everyday be like this? 

One can dream right? 

Saddest part the drive home....

The air is filled with tobacco,and the windows shatter from the loud music as he resides lines to some poppy romantic song.

I space out and try to wake myself up.Im going back to reality and everything just weighs down on me again. 

Its a routine ....I wouldnt change a thing.

Whats your escape? Do YOU have a rabbit hole? If you do then you know what im talking about.